-if you frown at it, it frowns back; if you smile at it, it returns the greeting.
I received this little bit of sagely advice from a fortune cookie I had one morning. Strangely enough, it’s the type of advice I’ve been trying to give a friend of mine every time he comes to me depressed. And I understand a lot of what he gets upset over, because I’ve traveled a similar road myself; but I haven’t found the right way of telling him that it will be ok, and when he gets older it won’t be as bad as he thinks. So he’ll go on believing I don’t understand him just because despite all the stress, uneasiness, and depression I’ve gone through during the first half of this year I’ve managed to remain…upbeat.
I would have to say some of it is due to being around a rather supportive family, and the fact that I was able to see some friends. No…not just some friends, but more like extremely important friends to me. I don’t think I would have managed so well through my high school and early college years if it weren’t for their inspirational support. So in a way, in being able to see them for just the brief time that I have, I was able to pull through the first half of this year better than I expected. You guys know who you are, and if you ever get around to reading this, know that I love you with all of my heart, and am eternally grateful that you’re a part of my life.
And I am trying to be a bit more upbeat about it all; moping about how bad it is really doesn’t get me anywhere I want to be. I’m sure during the more stressful back to school times I wasn’t as ‘cheerful’ as I could have been with the customers from my last job, but I find myself smiling most of the time at my new job as I’m greeting them. I’m still getting to know my managers and co-workers, but thus far what little quirks I have seem worthy of a good humored joke to them; and I’ve proven myself at being quick and efficient during my first morning after truck day…managing to unload more loads than the one guy that works there, while finding where things go better than a girl that’s been there a month longer than I have. Not bad, considering how little of the layout I knew just then. I still get lost on certain items, because they’re placed somewhere different than where you would think to find them…but I’ll muster through it in the end. Oh! I also feel very official now that I have my very own box cutter! Complete with a clip to attach it to my pants and a cord to keep it from being separated or lost from the case! I was so delighted to receive it! Really! I WAS! I made myself laugh at the thought of it!
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Once again, I must agree with you. I'm often plagued by depression, doubt and any number of other problems which can get me down as well as others I may need to vent to every so often. Believe it or not, I try to stay positive and look ahead, not dwell on my mistakes and poor decisions of the past.
ReplyDeleteFortune cookie fortunes typically make groan but once in a while a fascinating one, like yours, pops up.
Having a supportive family is also wonderful. While one of my brothers is currently being a jackass about various things I still have three more siblings and a superkind and generous dad. I tended to take these great people for granted when I was younger but I truly appreciate them now.
I'm happy to have helped you through some of your very interesting/exciting 2010, I wish you well with the new job and your box cutter is indeed pretty damn cool!